So, I’m home now…. People keep asking me how it feels to be back. It’s funny because I feel weird writing this after not writing so long, I’ve been home for weeks now. Well, three weeks actually, but it feels like three months. The trip…I think it might have been a dream. I know it happened, but it feels like it happened to someone else. I look at the pictures and am jealous of this family that got to happily travel to all these wonderful places. I know how much of a struggle it was and how not happy we were a lot of the time, and yet I still look at the smiling faces with envy. Now, I’m figuring out my life as a single mom.
It seems like a lot has happened in such a short time. We spent a lot of time unpacking. Although we are finished with that, we still have an entire shed to go. Plus we need to get rid of all the broken furniture from the renters.
We’ve been eating healthy (that includes cooking real food!), trying to keep the house clean, making appointments, softball practices, getting back into their part-time schools, testing, etc.
The future: still a bit foggy but becoming clearer. Caleb will be doing concurrent enrollment where he does two days of school and two days of community college. Zoe will be doing two days at school, two days at home, and one day at an enrichment program. Harmony is super excited to be going into our Church’s private school. She already has friends attending there and it’s pricey, but we are hoping for a scholarship. I told her that I don’t know what the future holds, but for this year she has somewhere fun to go and can not contain her excitement.
Even though I’ve been pretty busy (see the list above), I’ve been bored and lonely a lot. So… I’m not so freaked out about a job. I just need to find one that’s part time and pays well…and that I don’t hate. OK so I’m still a bit freaked out but assuming it goes well, I’m thinking it should be (slightly) fun. I went back to work a few years ago because things were so bad at home and I just wanted a place where I could be me, and be appreciated. Hopefully I can do that again (although since that business is out of business it will have to be somewhere else). But I can only do things one day at a time, so that will have to wait.
I miss my friends from the road. The rekindled relationships I made…it was the most precious part of the trip for me. Life is short and I will find a way to keep these relationships from going back to an every 20 year type deal.
Blessings:
- Don’t need to spend $100 in gas every day
- Although my RV is broken down in the driveway right now, it’s not an emergency
- I get as much WiFi, electricity, water, and sewage as I want, whenever I want.
- Much less arguing in the house
- Things seem to be falling into place and we are gaining a new schedule and life – if ever so slowly. Sometimes routine is better than chaos (not usually, but right now it’s needed)
Harmony’s Corner
So for softball I was on on the 12U (12 and under team) and then I switched to the 9U team. Then I switched back to the 12U team and now I am on the 9U team officially. I’m a little sad because I made this REALLY good friend on the 12U team. But now my softball dream is probably going to come true. (Which is to pitch.) But who knows?
I got to go to a garden party at Church and (for those who are men you probably will not be interested) but I got a pedicure kit at the party. I also got for dinner really good sandwiches. (So much that I had three or four sandwiches) and potato salad and five chocolates. At the party I met someone who’s going to FCA next year in 5th grade and so am I.
I am so excited that I got into Faith Christian Academy. On May 1st I am going to shadow a person to see what 5th grade is like at a private school. I am so excited because I can go on school buses and go five days a week and other cool stuff.
I got to have a sleepover with one of my best friends and I also got to see my other best friend. I love seeing my friends.
My mom says we all don’t wanna go on another trip again but it is just Zoe and Caleb who don’t wanna go. I want to go with her really badly. It is fun sleeping in my own bed. Also it is nice to have lots of space. Also I got to be on a magazine!
